A New Day Has Come.....

Long lonely nights, filled with myriad thoughts, I stared out of my window... I look at the moon glow and hear the dogs bark, all underneath the stars shining bright.... There’s yet another day that I put behind me, so, now I’m thinking for the day it had been.... What I achieved and what is still missing?!?! mail check.. assignments check... chores check... msgs check... preps check... call reverts, well never mind!!! But yet there is something amiss... So now I ponder and think.... What is still missing?!?! First thought was obviously you... but thought a little harder cause it just can’t be true!!! Why in spite everything being perfect it’s still imperfect?!?! Why in d happiness there’s sadness?!?! Why in laughter I sense sorrow?!?! Why in the crowd I fell all alone!?!? And why in the presence I feel an absence?!?! Mmm... Why?!? I always sought the why!!! Never asked it aloud but always pondered deep inside... it wasn’t like this always... then what went missing one fine day?!? So then I met a friend all pissed and harrowed... and made an attempt to market him all my sorrow.... he heard me out and laughed it out loud... only to help me sought it out anyway... “Follow the light” is what he said... “Follow the light?!?!” is that what he said?!!? Dumbstruck is what I felt!!! “Follow the light” was indeed what he said... So now again these words had crept... I head back home after a while and was thinking about this for quite some time... And after thinking for all this time then I happened to smile... yep I did... cause that is when I realized I was looking for the right thing in the wrong place all this while... what I seek lies deep within me... And then the things fell in place for me... the imperfection came from me looking at things the way you wanted me to see... the sadness came from the ignorance of happiness around me... sorrow came from being ungrateful to laughter He’s given me... loneliness came from choosing to be left alone with thee... And the absence came from me losing myself in the quest to be with you... yeah... that was the damn problem... I was blinded by the darkness... And now, I’ve got my light... yep I have... the miracle is with me... and it had always been with me.. And now I see with clarity what exactly is needed for me.. So now I’ve chosen a road... the one which gets me closer to this light... And now I’m aware, I gotta follow my way... I was trying too hard all along the way and in the process kept pushing myself away... So now I don’t search for you, but me.... And for all that I ought to be... What is meant to be will always be and if it’s not there then was never meant to be... And now I move on... Smiling all long... For A new day has come for me...........

It still Remains......

Why does it hurt?!? Why does it pain?!?! Why does something inside me sulk this way?!?! Especially when it’s gone... And I’m past it oh so long... Then why this twitch in me anyway!!! Though it happened eons ago, yet it seems so fresh to me... as it was just like a day ago!!!! What was there then isn’t here now... what was once “we” is “you” and “me” now... What we had looked so strong like it would go on... and now is nowhere to be found since you’ve been gone!!! Now I move on... trying to be strong!!! Dunno where I’m heading along this way!!!! I wanted you to grow and you wanted to go... I couldn’t hold you back and there you moved on... And every time I have a glimpse of you now... I still feel the way like I did yesterday... but then.... yet it’s not the same today... you’re gone but you still remain... in a part of me... which is meant to be... you won’t look back and I won’t take u back and neither will things ever be like they were yesterday!!! Though something in me saddens to see you with somebody who isn’t me... I’m happy for all the times when that somebody was “me”!!! I still and always will wish you luck, love, joy, happiness and everything nice.... even if it’s not me you’ll be sharing all these with anyway!!! And now I know.... why the pain and the hurt?!?! Cuz I’ve a part of you in me which still remains and brings these emotions gushing through to me!!! It still remains.... and will always be.... so I’ll always thank you all the way!!!