Memories...

All things pass eventually..

For Life is nothing but a phase..

But one thing always remains to be chased..

Are the Memories that neither fade nor erase...

When I look back at what I have lost and gained..

In all these years with each passing day...

I have realized I always had a memory that was made...

A memory etched even before I realized as always...

A thought of you could mean so many things..

The smile that came by having you with me...

The giggle when we spoke all night through...

The blush on my face when you glanced at me..

The innocence in the kisses we stole few..

The sheer joy of getting away with things that we shouldn’t do..

The excitement of doing that something new..

The smirk in my eye when I checked out the guy next to you..

The jealousy when you glanced at the girl checking out you..

The comfort that came when you embraced my fears through..

The strength you reinforced that we will get through.. ..

The pride of having your belief in me that I lived through..

The happiness that came from seeing your dream come true..

The love that meant I will never leave you..

The trust that meant we will always be true..

The sadness that I felt with seeing you in pain..

The resentment for the promises that were unkept and untrue..

The remorse for not holding you back when you left..

The fear that lurked when we drift away for I knew I won’t see you..

The assurance we will cross paths again which I know is so damn true..

And this will be not when we want to.. But when destiny decides for us to..

All of these emotions are so fresh... And I will relive these whenever I reminiscence of you..

You can walk away and think it’s over with you gone..

For you can take all away that is yours if you want..

I dunno if you'll come around but I know I will hold on to you..

For... I believe in Love.. The Love I have with you..

These Memories that I will always hold onto are mine.. Made Ours with You!!

A Walk in Life......

A friend sent a mail today which I actually read amongst all the fwds that I choose not to look at. The mail was somewhat on the lines of something I wonder.. I often tell myself and frenz that people come in your life for a reason but since everyone is not meant to be so few stay while others’ come, hang in and then walk away.. There have been quite a few people in my life who have been there for a while.. I often ask have they made a difference whatsoever in the little encounter?!
Some have walked in for just a while.. Not the kinds who linger around for long.. but just come by.. just to drop a ‘hi’ kinds.. Well.. yes they did manage to make a difference.. maybe not something substantial enough for me to take it to my grave but worthwhile enough to serve the purpose intended.. it could be for support.. faith.. adventure.. love.. care.. beauty.. special.. personality.. remembrance.. joy.. it was whatever I needed so badly deep within me at that moment.. to bring that lost smile back on my face.. And the very thought of being around that person is so very scintillating.. the euphoria so unmatched.. Alas, all of it was equally short lived.. And yeah just like all the good things in life which have to come to an end this one jus tops the list.. I guess they came in my life only for a while to help me forget and then move on.. either something or someone.. and in a way they helped me to reclaim my life which I had given away.. given away for a lost friend.. love gone.. mundane life.. ..separation or maybe a broken heart.. and once I had reclaimed that they walked away.. just as they had walked in.. and in spite of regaining that something I often wonder was it worth it.. worth the loss of this someone new..

Then, there are also few people I have been acquainted with for only a period.. or should I say for a duration in my life.. I guess they came in my life to change my perspective about myself and make me wanna see that something new in myself as well as around.. They helped me broaden my horizons and challenge my abilities.. I guess they served as a medium for me to learn, grow and advance.. Evolve into someone new than what I was before I met the person... And eventually with my evolution occurred their disappearance...

The last to be talked about are the ones that I can’t get enough of.. They simply refuse to go and stay for a lifetime torture.. and thank god for that.. And I will always be grateful to them for not only walking into my life but also staying and putting up with me unlike others, as I can be quite a pain most of the times.. I guess these are the people whom I can count on.. when in need or fear.. I know they are there and will be there for me always.. One can be assured of an unique emotional rollercoaster ride with them.. These are the ones who bring out the ability of unconditional love.. to love them as well as myself.. They’ve helped me become a better person with the experiences and values we have shared.. And more than anything they take me and accept me for what I am and not what I could be for them.. And so I love them even more..
So now when I sit back and look through my life and people I have come across.. I am thankful to not one but all for that one walk they made in my life.. Cause I don’t regret a single moment I spent with them for that is exactly what I wanted at that very moment in my life!!!

So Thank You for you'll always be remembered!!!

A New Day Has Come.....

Long lonely nights, filled with myriad thoughts, I stared out of my window... I look at the moon glow and hear the dogs bark, all underneath the stars shining bright.... There’s yet another day that I put behind me, so, now I’m thinking for the day it had been.... What I achieved and what is still missing?!?! mail check.. assignments check... chores check... msgs check... preps check... call reverts, well never mind!!! But yet there is something amiss... So now I ponder and think.... What is still missing?!?! First thought was obviously you... but thought a little harder cause it just can’t be true!!! Why in spite everything being perfect it’s still imperfect?!?! Why in d happiness there’s sadness?!?! Why in laughter I sense sorrow?!?! Why in the crowd I fell all alone!?!? And why in the presence I feel an absence?!?! Mmm... Why?!? I always sought the why!!! Never asked it aloud but always pondered deep inside... it wasn’t like this always... then what went missing one fine day?!? So then I met a friend all pissed and harrowed... and made an attempt to market him all my sorrow.... he heard me out and laughed it out loud... only to help me sought it out anyway... “Follow the light” is what he said... “Follow the light?!?!” is that what he said?!!? Dumbstruck is what I felt!!! “Follow the light” was indeed what he said... So now again these words had crept... I head back home after a while and was thinking about this for quite some time... And after thinking for all this time then I happened to smile... yep I did... cause that is when I realized I was looking for the right thing in the wrong place all this while... what I seek lies deep within me... And then the things fell in place for me... the imperfection came from me looking at things the way you wanted me to see... the sadness came from the ignorance of happiness around me... sorrow came from being ungrateful to laughter He’s given me... loneliness came from choosing to be left alone with thee... And the absence came from me losing myself in the quest to be with you... yeah... that was the damn problem... I was blinded by the darkness... And now, I’ve got my light... yep I have... the miracle is with me... and it had always been with me.. And now I see with clarity what exactly is needed for me.. So now I’ve chosen a road... the one which gets me closer to this light... And now I’m aware, I gotta follow my way... I was trying too hard all along the way and in the process kept pushing myself away... So now I don’t search for you, but me.... And for all that I ought to be... What is meant to be will always be and if it’s not there then was never meant to be... And now I move on... Smiling all long... For A new day has come for me...........

It still Remains......

Why does it hurt?!? Why does it pain?!?! Why does something inside me sulk this way?!?! Especially when it’s gone... And I’m past it oh so long... Then why this twitch in me anyway!!! Though it happened eons ago, yet it seems so fresh to me... as it was just like a day ago!!!! What was there then isn’t here now... what was once “we” is “you” and “me” now... What we had looked so strong like it would go on... and now is nowhere to be found since you’ve been gone!!! Now I move on... trying to be strong!!! Dunno where I’m heading along this way!!!! I wanted you to grow and you wanted to go... I couldn’t hold you back and there you moved on... And every time I have a glimpse of you now... I still feel the way like I did yesterday... but then.... yet it’s not the same today... you’re gone but you still remain... in a part of me... which is meant to be... you won’t look back and I won’t take u back and neither will things ever be like they were yesterday!!! Though something in me saddens to see you with somebody who isn’t me... I’m happy for all the times when that somebody was “me”!!! I still and always will wish you luck, love, joy, happiness and everything nice.... even if it’s not me you’ll be sharing all these with anyway!!! And now I know.... why the pain and the hurt?!?! Cuz I’ve a part of you in me which still remains and brings these emotions gushing through to me!!! It still remains.... and will always be.... so I’ll always thank you all the way!!!